So, I have a problem, and perhaps you, dear friends, can offer me some wisdom.
See, I have this problem with not sitting still on Sundays.
And I really, really want Sundays to be my Sabbath, my day of rest.
Buuuuuut...instead, I find myself tossing in 'just one' load of laundry, vacuuming roly-poly carcasses in the entryway, and emptying the dishwasher (and moving the chicken coop and cleaning the bathroom). My husband shakes his head and tells me to sit down and rest already, but in my mind, if I sit down, the things will not get done, and OH MY WORD.
THINGS MUST GET DONE.
Because the week is coming. And my mind is already there.
This is a true example of my thought-process today:
Naomi has a doctor's appointment on Monday morning.
I need to do everything I can tonight to make sure I don't have any chores to do in the morning, since we won't be here.
But, tonight, I have nursery duty at church.
And I have to be there at 5:45.
Which means, I need to get stuff done before then, while the kids are napping.
But, the kids need to pick up their own toys, so we need to pick up rooms and the playroom before naps.
And since they are cleaning and picking up, I might as well vacuum the dead roly-poly carcasses in the entryway.
And, just like that, I'm bustling around the house, hauling the vacuum cleaner behind me because I noticed the crumbs under the kitchen table after vacuuming up the dead roly-polys and how gross would it be if I left the crumbs there while the vacuum cleaner was IN MY HAND?
As I type this, I think I have a problem.
I mean, I don't consider myself a neat freak. But, there is an order to how I make things work throughout the day. If I allow dishes, laundry, or dead roly-polys to accumulate at all, then I'm immediately in over my head. Because my life doesn't stop, except at nap time. The house gets undone several times a day thanks to the little birds three, and I love that ... as long as I can have it picked up, too. And I do take a break at nap time. But ... what about Sundays?
I am a huge believer in Sabbath Rest. For us, Sunday is the most obvious day for that rest. I think what I'm saying is, I have a hard time allowing myself any type of rest for an entire day. A whole day without a load of laundry? Really? MY LIFE WILL COLLAPSE. Because tomorrow, when the mess is still there, I'm suddenly behind. And life keeps tumbling forward and, for me, it's much easier to tumble right along with it than to stop and rest and get left behind. If the house is picked up and the chores are done, I feel more prepared to face the day, if we have somewhere we have to be. And then I'm spending more time playing and hanging out with the kids than frantically doing eight loads of laundry.
Is this a season? I know the dead roly-polys only happen in the summer, so that really is only a season. I don't vacuum every day during the other three seasons, ha. But, in all seriousness, what should my reason be to rest? God did not command us to rest "during nap time". God Himself rested for a whole day after creating the world. He created rest, when you think of it. I know rest should be, in theory, restorative, but it's hard to feel restored when there's a pile of laundry that needs to be done, at the brink of a busy week that won't allow you much time to do it.
You know what I think it is, too? I have a hard time resting at home. Put me on a boat or at someone else's house, and I can sit and be lazy. But at my house, I'm always seeing things that need to be done. Once those things are done, I rest just fine. But taking an entire day of rest means those things won't get done.
Is it okay to only rest during nap time, or should I really try to take an entire day of rest on Sunday?
Does it matter?
What do y'all think??
Have a lovely day. :)